Does My Depression Mean That God Hates Me?


Wonderful!! Please read!! So worth the few minutes it takes! It could help you, or someone else some day!! Thank you Seth for this!!

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Depression Suicide

I recently got an email from a subscriber that tugged on my heartstrings. It read, in part:

“What can I do about being depressed? I feel like I have fallen away from God and His grace and I don’t know my way back.”

To this person, I want you to know that I know that feeling.

A few years ago, when I was going through one of my darkest struggles with depression, I remember spending about two hours furiously scribbling over and over and over again, the phrase, “God Hates Me” in a notebook.

My experiences with depression made me feel as though all of my hopes and dreams had turned to ashes. The heavens seemed silent. And every night when I prayed it seemed like the floor would open up underneath me, and drop me even deeper into the pit of depression.

I was exhausted and felt defeated. I felt…

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Are we in the right place?

Most days, yes, I do believe that I am in God’s Will. I read another talk this morning, but y’all probably expected that, since I have been blogging about doing the 40 Day and 40 Night General Conference Challenge.  Today’s was “The Lord Has A Plan For Us” by Carlos A. Godoy.  Good Stuff! There is a question in the talk: If we continue to live as we are living, will the promised blessings be fulfilled? So I want to more diligently look at this is my life.

He talked about three principles to follow so that we can be in God’s will for us. I’m not going to tell you them, because you should go read it for yourself!!  HaHa.


I play WOW on a private server. I have recently been playing on a server that was in Beta test phase. It went live yesterday, so the last two days the queues have been crazy. I mean like 2000 people in queue before me, crazy.  Yesterday I didn’t get on until last night because just about the time my queue came up, my hubby came home from work and it was his turn with the computer. So last night I logged on for a bit and made a Pandarian Monk, she is not about a level 15. Later tonight I will log on and work more on her.


Little Mister had a his tonsils out yesterday. After he got home until almost noon today, we could not get him to drink, or take his medicine. All he did was cry and sleep (on one of us). But now he is feeling much better. Thank Heavenly father!!


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Depression—A Battle Too Big to Fight Alone


Wonderful video on suicide prevention. I ought to know. I attempted suicide in Oct of 2002. God kept me from dying. I spiraled into drug addiction for a few years after that. In Sept of 2006 I entered recovery!! Today my life is beautiful! Heavenly Father loves me, He love you, He knows us!! If you have depression problems, please don’t listen to the thoughts in your head!! Find someone to help! You are NOT alone!!!!

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"Lost and Found" by Greg Olsen

“Lost and Found” by Greg Olsen

A few months ago, my brother and I were invited to be interviewed for a video about suicide prevention. The video was published last night with this text in the video description:

There is no easy solution for helping someone who has thoughts about ending their life. But there are some things we can do to reach out to them.

The most common sources of pain for someone having suicidal thoughts are feeling disconnected from other people, feeling like they’re a burden to others or that people would be better off without them. Coupled with the hopeless thoughts that things aren’t going to change, suicidal thoughts become risky.

For some, like Seth Adam Smith, the right words spoken by another can change a life. Seth’s depression caused him to attempt suicide. He was miraculously saved, and when he awoke, his older brother’s words changed…

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Facing the right way

The Talk I read this morning for the 40 Day 40 Night General Conference Challenge is “Which Way Do You Face” by Elder Lynn G Robbins. Awesome!!

Trying to please others before pleasing God is inverting the first and second great commandments

And this one kicked my butt:

When people try to save face with men, they can unwittingly lose face with God. Thinking one can please God and at the same time condone the disobedience of men isn’t neutrality but duplicity, or being two-faced or trying to “serve two masters” (Matthew 6:24; 3 Nephi 13:24).

I am personally going to work on remembering ‘which way I face’. Being tolerant and loving are wonderful, and yes I want to be both, but I have to learn to be loving but at the same time not condone disobedience!!

And, at the same time I have to remember not to get all high and mighty and start judging others! Practice, practice, practice. Lots of spiritual principles here to work on (courage, humility, self-discipline, honesty, willingness, faith, trust and I’m sure probably a few more).


I hope that all of you have a wonderful day.

Little Mister is having his tonsils taken out today, so I’m praying he gets through that easily and heals well. Your prayers added to mine are appreciated.


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Happy Tuesday

Good morning!!

Today’s 40 Days & 40 Nights General Conference Challenge talk was “Sustaining The Prophets” by Russell M Nelson. I love this quote:

My dear brothers and sisters, if the Restoration did anything, it shattered the age-old myth that God had stopped talking to His children. Nothing could be further from the truth.


I got to sleep a little late this morning. It was very nice!!

My grandkids are watching Frozen again for about the 500th time. They love it. Little Miss sings along with the songs. It is soooooo cute.

Well I need to close. I Hope everyone has a great day!!





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Parents as teachers

Today I watched/listened to the talk by Tad R Callister  “Parents: The Prime Gospel Teachers of Their Children

I missed out on teaching my children all that I should have taught them about Heavenly Father, Jesus Christ and the Restored Gospel. I am definitely going to attempt to do better teaching with my grand children on this subject.

He posed a question that I believe is very, very important:

We might all ask ourselves: do our children receive our best spiritual, intellectual, and creative efforts, or do they receive our leftover time and talents, after we have given our all to our Church calling or professional pursuits?

I will have to work diligently to make sure I give my grand children my best efforts, not what is left over!!

I hope that all of you have a wonderful day!!! (((HUGS)))



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New Video

If you have ever had questions about the LDS Temples, robes or garments, you should watch this video:



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Ponder The Path Of Thy Feet

Ponder The Path of Thy Feet is the name of a wonderful talk given by President Thomas S. Monson this past first weekend in October.  It was the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints conference that we have twice a year.

It was a wonderful talk (they always are though). I also thought it was really cool that a couple of the speakers prior to the prophet had stated to follow the Prophet, and then he told us to follow Jesus Christ!

One of his early statements in this talk was: We learn that decisions determine destiny.

He told of a woman who visited Jerusalem and was thrilled to have walked where Jesus walked, then he told us that:  physically walking where Jesus walked is less important than walking as He walked.

He assured us that:

We, with Jesus, can walk the path of obedience. It will not always be easy, but let our watchword be the heritage bequeathed us by Samuel: “Behold, to obey is better than sacrifice, and to hearken than the fat of rams.”13 Let us remember that the end result of disobedience is captivity and death, while the reward for obedience is liberty and eternal life.

And, he told us of a very spiritual and humble couple that I hope I can emulate one day.

Do yourself a favor and go read the words of a modern day prophet!!  I never regret hearing and applying  his counsel in my life!!


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It has been a while since I posted about gratitude. So today that is what you get.  (Oh by the way, my keyboard is going out. I am having to copy and paste every g and h in my typing. Thats why I havent been posting much.)

Gratitude List

Heavenly Father; My Savior Jesus Christ;  The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints; the President of the Church (the Prophet of the Lord); my Stake Presidency; my Bishopric; my RS presidency; my relationship with Heavenly Father & Jesus; NA; my relationship with my husband; my relationships with my children; Blondi; the Four; my grandchildren; LDS ARP; 12 Steps; my Ward; my calling; BACA; Plexus; repentance; humility; patience; forgiveness; modern revelation; personal revelation; surrender; acceptance; meetings; fellowship; Book of Mormon; Old Testament; New Testament; Doctrine & Covenants; Pearl of Great Price; serenity; perseverance; self-discipline; old-timers; new-comers;

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47186   soithasbeenJRH

asJesuswalked   JRH quote pray

JRHollandunconditional love   dontgiveupJRH


Can you tell I love memes!!!??




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My keyboard is messed up so:

proverbs 3   thanksgiving-daily-hinckley

forgiveness    humility-is-concerned



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